Thanatophobia

Take me the way I am.

Like I said,

People are like jellybeans.

So I’m gonna add more points, starting from 7 ‘cos I did 6 points the post before.

7) Some have bright colours but taste like shit.

8) Some look like shit but tastes good.

You know what I mean by taste.

Okay, so.

I feel like a guardian angel today lol.

Have I ever been this encouraging? Anyway, I wanna talk about appearance. Coincidentally, there was a personal grooming talk this morning that was really crappy.

Anyway.

I think everyone has at least one thing they hate about how they look.

Heck, at least 10 things.

But seriously, I would rather be ugly and super smart than to be good-looking and downright stupid. Get what I mean?

But the thing is, I am both super smart and good-looking.

HAHAHAHAHAHAH.

You can stop coughing now.

Appearance doesn’t matter. At least it doesn’t during school. Education is way more important than your fucking looks. I rather look like Susan Boyle but have Einstein’s brain.

Am I not right?

I want to impress on the people who are good-looking but are, not as clever. I know one thing :

They don’t go far in life.

So, guardian angel. You must be wondering.

It’s all about what this post is about actually. Someone was having the ’ imsofuglyiwishiwasthatpersonimsojealousofthatperson ’ mood. So I had to console her.

Yeah.

I’m so going to heaven lol.

Just kidding.

So anyway,

Like I said, the talk in the morning was hands down, boring.

We all know how to dress ourselves. Why in the name of God would there be such a talk?

After that, played Captain’s ball during PE.

I became the keeper.

Okay I can feel your boredom.

Stopping here, have a great evening (:

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People are like jellybeans.

1) You only like some of them.

2) Some of them don’t go well together in your mouth.

3) You don’t recommend them to your friends, with is equivalent to bitching in real life.

4) You will still eat them after you eat all the ones you like.

5) You get bored of the ones you like.

6) They are all in different tastes and flavours, similar or not.

I totally made that up. Agree with me or not, it makes truckloads of sense to me.

Anyway,

I’M BACK FROM CAMP. :D

I can’t help it but to waste your time reading every single event that happened these few days, but first, before the camp,

Kranji War Memorial.

The Secondary 2 Cohort went to some other places before that but personally to me, the Kranji War Memorial was downright memorable.

It was unbelievably heartbreaking.

They all died under the age of thirty.

Freaking thirty.

And some of them can’t even be recognised.

And some of their bodies weren’t found.

It was, really painful to be there.

And I saw my names on the wall of the people whose bodies weren’t found.

Something like this :

______ Muhammad Ayub ___ | ________ Muhammad (forget)

________________________ | ________ Muhammad Shafi

________________________ | ________ Muhammad Shafie

Yes, I’m still alive.

Okay,

After that, camp.

I hate packing up for camps. And I packed the morning before the camp ‘cos I was too lazy the night before.

Anyway, I’m gonna skip some of the events that weren’t really important.

Kayaking.

Thank God I was with Sahara. The bloody motherfucking rain made me blind for a few seconds.

Rock Climbing

I used to suck at it, but I got to the class maximum height on the second day of the camp. Yay me,

But really, that wasn’t all. The whole class cheered. And I really mean whole.

Dinner

It was the dinner on the second day. I beat Rong Zhou at arm-wrestling, because I made him laugh, duh.

Unfortunately, one of the instructors saw me beat him and he challenged me. I lost, Obviously.

But on the bright side, the whole class, again, cheered for me.

Campfire

Best. Campfire. Ever.

I usually hated campfires but I guess I proved myself wrong.

It was the first time I saw the whole class so united. Not like we weren’t before, but it was great. I had a blast.

I screamed by lungs off.

And I got a sore throat, I’m fucking serious.

I used to think people were exaggerating at getting sore throats after screaming so loudly, but believe me, it was a pain in the throat.

And I mean it quite literally.

Breakfast

The next day, someone totally,

you guessed it

PISSED ME OFF.

It isn’t really important, I know you wouldn’t get what I’m talking about, but

WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU TAKE THE FOOD IN THE FIRST PLACE IF YOU KNEW IT WASN’T FUCKING FAIR?

MOTHERFUCKING WHORE.

Okay,

Let’s not talk about big, fat, ugly, uneducated and unimportant people.

Then we went home.

I got the feeling when you want to stay but also want to go home and fucking rest.

And so, the camp ended.

And so is this post about camps.

Now to motivation.

Closer view.

Good to know I have quite a fan.

You know what I mean.

-.^

So I bought these 3 badges.

I am totally obsessed with badges, seriously.

This one’s for Nurul. Sahara and I bought this eventhough we’re 4 days late.

:D

I especially like this one <3 <3 <3

OKAY.

Moving on to tag replies.

I only have two :( .

Please tag ‘cos I know you’re dying to.

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M!z Motivation . hmmm.

I’m gonna watch Mean Girls tonight, yay! :D

Still climbing.

Good evening.

Have you ever wondered whether or not you’re not going to be the person you aspire to be?

Let me share my ambition.

I want to be an architect.

Yeah that’s it, actually.

Anyway.

I need to buck up already. Learn from every mistake and never repeat it.

I know I sound corny but I have a confession to make.

I got a pathetic 17/25 for my Math test.

Fuck.

I didn’t study, obviously and I was so disappointed (still am) . I really have to study my behinds off. At least I think I did well for the Literature test this afternoon.

OKAY.

Anyway,

I dreamt I met David Cook the night before yesterday. We were part of Westwood Talent Show. Don’t laugh yet.

Why would he even be in a stupid Talent show if he already won American Idol?

Because it’s Westwood.

Like duh.

Sarcasm.

He sang Hero by Mariah Carey. He actually sang Always Be My Baby by Mariah Carey during American Idol.

Wrong song, brain.

And I sang Time of My Life by David Cook. It gets weirder and weirder.

And the best part : We became the best of friends.

Rolling on the floor laughing my fucking ass off out loud.

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Have an awesome sleep tonight.

Lol.

*My voice is okay already.

Yay me.

Yawn

I don’t know why but I just have a thing about lions.

Lions are so unbelievably cute in so many ways.

I slept for 14 hours this morning/last night. Soooo blardy sleepy.

So,

I’ve been getting a whole lot of hints. If you’re reading this, which I hope you are, please, tell me, what in fucking heaven do you want from me?

You seriously don’t want to piss me off. You just don’t want to. Call me a bitch or whatever you want to call me, you just don’t want me angry.

You’ve been warned.

I can do things even your mum can’t do.

Many things.

Anyway,

Tests are around the corner, I really need more motivation.

So there’s this thing that kept bothering me:

Why do malays keep using the word ‘bodoh’ or ‘la sial’ after every line, to somebody?

Seriously?

Like : ’ Konek aku saket, bodoh. ‘

Translation : My dick is in pain, stupid.

or

’ Tu pen aku la sial !’

Translation : That’s my pen, bitch.

Hello?

Damn right I’m a bitch. And let’s see this bitch see who’s stupid after my fist flies towards the direction of your face.

It’s just plain low-class. If someone would ever say that to me, I swear to God their family generations will stop right then and there.

Just curious.

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The phaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaantom ofttheDaryl is here.

Have a great weekend.

Fuck Superman.

You can call me a lion on PMS today.

Sorry if I hurt or screamed at anyone today, deep and sincere apologies from the bottom of my heart.

I didn’t have mood for anything today. Sorry for being a total jackass. I really don’t know what I’ll do without friends. Thanks for the concern, but seriously, nobody in the world can cheer me up on my pms day.

You know what sucks?

Being absent on an important day. I’m only gone for one fucking day and I missed so much of lessons. Yes, I do care about my education. You can close your mouth now thank you.

I didn’t study for my Math test this morning, hence not doing really well. Quite disappointed actually. Okay who am I kidding. I’m very disappointed.

I could feel my brain starting to pop out during History, where I missed so much. Already started on Chapter 3, and finished all the notes, which I didn’t receive.

And I couldn’t stand Ms Huda talking too fast, let alone one by one, people pissing the fuck out of me.

I don’t really know why I’m so angry today. Maybe it’s because I didn’t accomplish anything in school, or to the fact that my voice is softer than normal.

Which sucks big time.

I couldn’t talk properly.

Fuck the world.

I’m unsatisfied with my attitude.

I’m unsatisfied with my habits.

I’m unsatisfied to the fact that I give up so easily all the time.

I hope I will brighten up soon.

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So sick.

No, I’m just ill, not sick of anything.

This has got to be the worst sore throat I’ve experienced in my entire life. Fuck this. I’ve been sucking on fugging Strepsils for about an hour now but it’s still hurts in the throat.

I’m having my pms week, even though I’m not female, I call it pms. I get irritated really easily for a few days, so please don’t try me. I usually have my pms week when I’m ill, hence my pms now.

Anyway, I had a totally weird dream this morning.

I died.

And I was a ghost trying to discover how I died. SO CREEPY RIGHT?

Never had that kind of dream before.

Yesterday

Went to Ntuc.

I swear to God, even the most patient person in the world will get pissed off if he went there yesterday, which is on a Saturday. It was so fucking packed! And strangely, having pms, it was a miracle for me not to explode in the middle of the store.

1) People were blocking the way and not even caring that there were people behind them.

2) There were fucking idiots who kept staring at me. Want to know something? They were mostly guys. Talk about creepy. I felt uncomfortable in so many ways. -.-

So I’ve been bloghopping the other day and I chanced upon this blog.

(please admire my effort of using the phrase : chanced upon)

Link : http://th-singaporevsbritish-english.blogspot.com/

If your english sucks hands down, that blog will save your life, trust me.

No I’m not in any way named Betty.

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Yonghui! (: hey hi.thanks man (: altho i don’t really know you..thanks for tagging in my britishVSsingapore blog (: ! well.remember to link us !

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Maybe I love being different

I hate being someone I’m not.

I hate trying so hard to fit in when I have nothing in common with them.

I hate feeling lonely.

You know what I love?

I love being myself. I don’t have to be someone I’m not for, in my case, nothing. Even though I’m not like you people, I love what I do and who I am. Don’t get the nerve to fucking judge me.

I don’t want to be an ordinary person with a boring life. Only boring people feel bored. I want to do crazy things and make my life meaningful ‘cos it’s too short. Do you know who I want to be exactly like?

Myself.

I felt really independent today. I didn’t rely on anyone. This is one of the reasons why being single rocks hardcore. And I have to confess something :

I’m suffering from thanatophobia.

( I just edited from ‘I’m thanatophobic’ to ‘I’m suffering from thanatophobia’ ‘cos I thought it was way cooler that way LOL. )

Meaning : phobia of death, old age, and dead things.

I freak out a lot when I think of death. I would literally just slap the person who laughs about death, or dead people, or people who are suffering. Go fuck yourself.

Mr Faisal said last year that the second year of secondary school was the slack year, but I totally disagree. I work my ass off to study. I go to fucking mCkers to study. I get myself motivated just to study. I ignore bullshit just to study. Fuck I’m just so stressed up I hope it’s worth it.

I have to work hard.

Please excuse my corniness. I know I sound really mad today.

Okay forget it. Moving on to what happened today.

School. Skip.

Okay nothing really happened lol. I told Ameline something yesterday. Or rather she read my blog post. And I told her to confront the person I mentioned in the blog post.

To be honest I felt so bad. I feel so guilty revealing her secret to everyone I know. Or even people who I don’t.

Oh GOD it’s coming again.

Have a great evening.

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wtheck. so sacarstic sia. taggggggg anw -.-

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Read already. Sibeh long. LOL.

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Grandeur

Yeah that word isn’t really related to this post.

But anyway, I had a great time at school today. Not a rare thing I would usually say but really. I love going to school. Not really because of lessons but the time I spend with people around me.

I look forward to Thursdays. Drama class. (: . I had to stand on the table and read out a whole monologue to the class. Not really embarrassing. Yes, stand on the table. I had to stand on the table ‘cos my voice was too soft.

IT JUST COMES NATURALLY OKAY?

Speaking of my voice, you bimbos should stop asking me why my voice is soft sometimes, ‘cos it you would end up hearing answers from me such as :

1) Because I can’t stand the fact that you’re too fucking ugly.

or

2) Because I fucked your mum hard last night and I don’t have enough energy to speak louder.

But really it’s sometimes like that. It just is.

Anyway, something random :

Why do people say they slept with a woman/man when they mean they just had sex with them? It doesn’t really mean they slept with them right? I mean sleep. Hmmmmmmm.

Sorry for wasting your time.

Touched by an angel.

Time to reach out,

time to be who I am

Finally, I believe my dreams will unfold

It’s like being touched by an angel.

A brand new beginning,

It’s amazing.

This is a moment I will remember.

Finally, I can feel heaven on earth

It’s like being touched by an angel

My world is changing, I’m living out loud

Feels like I’ve been touched by an angel,

Above.

I’m addicted to tbaa. Screw Ken Lim. It was stuck in my head since yesterday morning.

And I’ve been eating truckloads of peanut butter today. I just ate 8 slices of bread with thick amounts of peanut butter on each of them. I’m getting fat. Which I think is a good thing ‘cos I only weigh 54kg. :)

Nothing really happened in school today, only during mother tongue when I made Uzair and Irfan present to the whole class saying : “susu pisang” .

Meaning : Banana Milkshake.

Or if you weren’t raised properly and have an unwashed mind, susu pisang to you means semen.

I don’t have to explain that.

Anyway, I’m dying to blog about this centuries ago:

Weird things people do which I hate.

1) Bringing your phone to school and not really using it in the end.

What I mean is, you bring your phone to school and use it in the school grounds. You don’t really use it but you’re just playing with it. I don’t know, showing off or something? Show off your mother. I don’t know. It’s just a stupid thing some idiots do:

You look down on your phone while walking, go to the phone menu, exit, go to the phone menu, exit, go to the phone menu, exit and find yourself not using your phone at all and you risked it from being confiscated for nothing.

Yeah you fucking dumbasses.

I have to admit I used to do that. Haha.

2) People who have incredibly little patience and result in complaining.

I hate people who complain. Hate to the power of despise to the power of detest. Be grateful for what you’ve got lah.

I know I’m complaining about people who complain right now, but it’s my blog so go fuck yourself hard.

3) Matreps and minahreps & Ah Bengs and Ah Lians.

If you don’t know which group of fucked bastards I’m referring to, I’m referring to the young gentlemen who wear floating caps, tight and undersized t-shirts with tiled, attractive coloured striped or whatever shit and wear those kinds of pants with two colours. One for the right leg and another for the left. Since when do they look nice? Seriously. And the minahs/ahlians. What they wear doesn’t really intrigue me ‘cos, I don’t know. I enjoy looking at them. HAHAHAHAHA. Jk.

Anyway, what they wear don’t matter much to me but their fucking attitude does. They roam around Singapore spitting and being inconsiderate.

Call me bullshit but I get imensely irritated by what they do.

Fuck them upside down in and out 50 times a second.

I’ve finished ranting. You can puke now.

Have a great day ahead. :)